Good morning,

You may have noticed that there hasn't been much progress lately.  That's because there hasn't been much progress lately.

The past couple of weeks have really taken their toll on me.  I know it probably sounds exciting--the whole TV thing--but frankly, it's all been a bit stressful and overwhelming.  My trip to New York for the Rachael Ray interview was not exactly what I had hoped it would be.  Unfortunately, the trip itself caused me to become seriously ill.  The good news is, I am recovering now.

I feel completely knocked off track, however.

Everything in my life is suffering right now; my progress, my job, my parenting.  I've missed 4 Dr. appointments in the last month, my tires are bald and I haven't had my car serviced in 7500 miles.  There are numerous updates to the site that I haven't gotten around to.  The Holiday Challenge I'm supposed to be on has gone straight out the window.  The list just goes on and on.  I feel unsuccessful at everything I'm doing right now.  It's killing me a little bit.

Don't think I'm feeling sorry for myself.  I'm just struggling right now.  This is the first time I've ever tried to lose weight on a schedule--with an audience. 

It's true I'm having a weak moment.  In fact I'm having several weak moments, but I'm not giving up.

This is how life is for all of us, often; over-extended, stressed-out, disappointing.  When it comes right down to it, in these moments, it doesn't matter how much support you surround yourself with.  There are still things no one can do for you--but you.  

People write me often to ask me how I do it or how I get through the tough times or where I find my determination.  The answer to that is, I have to figure that out on a daily basis, just like anyone else.

I'm not exactly sure what I'm going to do to get myself sorted out.  I know, for today, it starts by getting on the treadmill and eating something good for me and building on that. 

Pamela